The Painter of the Wind : Review

I would liken this drama to a really good painting; it was beautiful, moving and impactful. I know some would consider it "slow" but I honestly didn't have any problems with the pacing. Like I said before, it really was like a beautiful painting.
the beginning pulled me in right away especially when he referred to her as his "student, teacher, friend and lover" and I seriously died. I already knew I would  love their love from that moment.

Okay,  I'm going to stop going on about my feels and just get into the notes:

1) This drama was much deeper and daring than I thought it would be but in a good way. Yes, there are some similarities between this drama and Sungkyunkwan Scandal (I already knew about the similarities between the two before I watched TPOTW). But it made Sung Scandal look so light and fluffy. Of course I still love Sung Scandal and I can't even decide which one I like more because they are in two different categories. But I think TPOTW is just more...mature. 

2) She was in  in love with a man and a woman at the same time! This is something I have NEVER EVER seen in a Kdrama.  I know she acknowledged her feelings for Jung Hyang before she realized she was in love with Danwon too, but before she acknowledged her feelings for him, there was still some obvious undeniable sexual tension between them.


3) I must be the only person that thought this and I really don't care buuuut...was I the only one that found Kim Hongdo AKA Danwon HOT? Like everything he did was hot to me. Even when he was being silly, I was still like

And its funny because when I first heard about this drama I was like "Really? Why does she have to get paired with some old guy?  Like why can't she have someone attractive?" and then when you fast forward to me watching the drama and I'm like 2 seconds away from jumping him.

4) pieces of her back story are just sprinkled in each episode. we don't get her full back story immediately like I was expecting so at first I was like, "Am I watching episode 6 or episode 1? Like who is she and how is she here?". But in end I think I was fine with the fact that we were left in the dark for a few episodes. It made her seem more mysterious and it really built anticipation.

5)I have never before shipped the main character with the main love interest AND the third angle in love triangle but seriously I wanted Yun Bok with Danwon AND Jung Hyang. I was like "Why is this not burger King!? why can't I have it my way!?"

6)the whole lesbian thing didn't bother me. neither did the age difference between Yun Bok and Danwon. But she's 18 so it's really not that bad! I think the main problem is the deception aspect.I mean, they both fell for her thinking she was a boy. Surprisingly, Danwon wasn't mad at her about the whole "deception" thing tho. He understood that it wasn't her fault that she had to pretend to be a boy. He directed his anger at the right person which is her adoptive father. The 3945454455th reason why I loved Danwon.

 7) Although, the Jung Hyang/ Yun Bok ship was tying with the Danwon/Yun Bok ship, ultimately the Danwon/ Yun Bok ship won my heart. Because I mean,  they were just EVERYTHING to EACH OTHER. (Like Danwon stated in the heartbreaking first scene). They were each other's biggest supporters. They could be completely free and crazy with each other. (Get prepared because i'm gonna say "each other ALOT")

 They argued with each other, They cried in each other's arms, they made sacrifices for each other, they laughed with each other, they exchanged meaningful looks with each other. They learned so much from each other, they appreciated each other's talent. They just wanted to spend the rest of their lives with EACH OTHER. It didn't matter where they were as long as they were together.
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Damn..this fictional  love story got  me writing paragraphs n shit. .

8) Yes, I was hoping there would be a kiss scene with Danwon and Yun Bok but I had a feeling we wouldn't get one. But the forehead kiss scene was so lovely!! These two were so beautiful and affectionate, that I didn't even need a kiss scene to feel satisfied with their love story. I was good after that forehead kiss scene

9) This drama seriously made me wish I could draw!! **Maybe if I get into art, I'll find my Danwon lol. 

Lastly, shout out to Bae Soo Bin for being so hot as king Jeongjo. I'm so glad I could like him this time cuz I hated his character in 49 days.

Shout out to Moon Geun Young too. What a brilliant actor she is!! She absolutely took me there!! Love love love her.

10) I will not discuss the ending because I refuse to accept it. In my mind, Danwon and Hyewon (Yes, I'm using Yun Bok's pen name cuz it sounds cute when you say it with Danwon) ran away to some peaceful, faraway land, had 2 children and painted landscapes and portraits for the rest of their lives. The end.

**Must reduce thirst level

How To Deal With Disappointment/Rejection Part 2

This is  what I wrote when I made the list (before I got the Email of Doom) :
"I decided to make this post because I was thinking about that scholarship thingy I applied to and I started thinking "if they don't take me (god forbid) I have to figure out a way to deal". So I decided to make this before they send me the letter (they're sending every one who applied a letter telling the person whether or not they got in) so I will have my coping tips all ready  just in case the worst case scenario actually happens.
So if your dealing with any form of rejection/disappointment (i.e your crush said he don't want you, You don't get into the college/university of your choice e.t.c)
I hope these will help you!"

K so, here they are!
1) Allow yourself to cry only once or twice maybe three times. after that, GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF.

 any more than that you are indulging yourself. more crying leads to more crying and before you know you'll be swimming in tears. Don't allow yourself to do that

2) surround yourself with people who love you and vice versa.

 My "friends" aren't really there for me the way I would like for them to be there for me but luckily I have my sisters and they've been really great and helpful. So I owe them a big thank you.

3) Inject positivity into  your mind. convince yourself that you are way too good anyway

Delete all the negative thoughts before they even cross your mind. You have to make yourself believe you're all right. 

4) Do something you love ALOT. go noraebang-ing until you drop. 

Party! let loose, go cray and just  release all the tension!! But don't go too crazy. 

5) Do not comfort eat. 

 trust me, that only leads to a downward spiral. its going to make you feel worse in the future. so just don't do it.

6) think about other people's lives. 

there people dying every day. children are losing their mothers, people are going to bed on an empty stomach. some people can't even afford to go to school. bottom line: your life could be worse.

6) meditate, do some yoga, help someone in need. 

you will truly start to appreciate yourself when you realize that all the things you can do. 

7) Lastly just smile. I know its hard but just do it. fake it til you make it. 

****BONUS****

The Queen Bey herself decided to bless the world by releasing her 5th album on Itunes and she didn't even tell anybody!! No warnings, no promos, no nothing so it really was like Christmas morning. I fangirled for days over it. I almost wrote a 5 paragraph essay on why I think Beyonce is the ultimate life giver.I mean,  17 MUSIC VIDEOS!! I don't think I could have dealt with this situation so well without her. At least I have something to be happy about this Christmas. Mama really cares about us. But she clearly doesn't care about our health. 

And she also reminded me of something VERY important and relevant to my situation right now

Nothing is ever really certain in lie and just because you work hard doesn't mean it will happen for you. But that doesn't me your life is over. You have to keep it moving and make yourself happy. 

 I really needed this. 

How To Deal With Disappointment/Rejection Part 1

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, its gonna be a long one so I made it into two parts.
I know the title says "how to deal with rejection"but the real title is "How Not To Feel Like a Crock of Shit" like how i'm feeling right now.
I'm in no condition to give advice to any one but i'm hoping I can benefit from it too. My sisters told me stuff like "its their loss" but we all know its mine. I lost. I lose and I feel really worthless and hurt as I suspected I would.
Don't think i'm talking about a boy cuz y'all should know by now that i'm not getting any vitamin D.
It's about that scholarship thingy I was talking about talking a few posts ago. I talked about how I was afraid of the possibility of not getting picked and how I tried to be all optimistic and stuff.
So anyway, yesterday around 8pm I just randomly checked my email just because. Before that, I was refreshing my email fro DAYSSS waiting for them to email me and I was stalking their twitter page too. I even made a separate twitter account for it and I planned to used it "when" I travel to S. Korea or China or wherever they might have sent me.
So when I saw the email I FUH-REAKED. I couldn't even open the email for like 5 minutes. I was hyperventilating  like I was about to give birth or something.

So finally I decided to just go ahead and bite the bullet. First of all, the message was looong and I was trying to get to the good part but I couldn't even read cuz I was losing my shit. Then I got to the part that basically translated to "unfortunately, you were not selected for the 2014-2015 program but we're going to encourage you to put your emotions on the line again next year by re-applying so we won't be held accountable for crushed dreams". I could tell they sent every body that got rejected the same letter.
At first I was in shock mode and then i just kinda started crying. My sisters told me all the typical "cheer up, its okay" stuff and a just sat there waiting for them to leave so I can cry properly.
I was like nodding and saying "okay" to everything they said.

And then when they left, I turned off my lights, climbed into bed and cried my eyes out for hours. I went from shocked to disappointed to heartbroken to angry to hurt to just a whole lot of not-so-good feelings wrapped into one. It really was a special kind of hurt for me because I put myself out there and I was just left feeling inadequate and stupid. I wondered what I could have done differently but then I just decided that the list was probably endless so there was no point thinking about it.
When I woke up the next morning, I was exhausted but at least I didn't feel like crying. It was the last day of school before Christmas break so that was kinda of nice. Of course I looked and felt like crap and I told one of my "friends" at my new school what happened because she could tell something was obviously wrong. Usually I'm loud and make random jokes but clearly I wasn't feeling like joking around and I was a bit quieter than usual and a few minutes after I told her what happened, she said something like "Michelle you're so dead, it's sooo obvious,  like everyone can tell, why don't' you try to cover it up?"
In my mind I was like

I said something like "I'm not going to put on a show or pretend to be happy for anybody when i'm clearly not. I'm not going to put on a fake smile or act happy if I don't feel like it"
Like, I apologize that bobo the clown didn't show up today and instead you got sad little old me. I didn't ask for her pity; all I wanted was for her to understand. Give me some space to mourn and move on, ON MY OWN. Was that too much to ask for?  needless to say, fuck her.
All day she kept reminding me of how I looked  and basically  succeeded in making me want to punch her. I had to quickly remind myself that I only have 1 more year of High School left.

Anyway, back to the matter. I''ll post the actual How To Deal later today. Its funny because I actually wrote them before I got the email for like "just in case". Its almost like I knew I was going to need them.

To The Beautiful You : Review

First of all, I actually started this drama in August right before school started because I wanted a fun, light, popcorn-y drama to watch before school took all my fun away. I got up to Episode 3 before I decided to drop it lol. I just thought It was a tad bit too.. animated, too unrealistic and too, well, MUCH.

But Ironically, all of that is part of the reason why I ended up LOVING this drama. Once I decided to approach this drama like I was watching a cartoon, my opinion changed drastically! I started to love how silly, bright, ridiculous and flashy this drama was.

Now lets get into the main couple. Just like everybody else, I found Jae Hee SUPER DUPER creepy!! Like this was beyond sesang. I was thinking "This is A LOT for a guy that doesn't even know you". But then towards the middle, I began to understand Jae Hee's perspective. She was basically trying to do the whole "pay it forward" thing and she was being selfless by pretending to be a boy. It wasn't her intention to make him fall in love with her. She didn't even like him like that. She just admired and respected him a lot.

AT First I thought Tae Joon was a major douchebag. But then I reminded myself that he thought Jae Hee was a guy and  guys tend to treat each other more roughly than girls do. It's just in their nature.
I was so happy when he found out that she came all the way to Korea to help him through a difficult time and most importantly, she was girl. He was sooo sweet to her. he was like her knight in shining armor. Aigooo my 12  year old Fangirl Feels are ackin' up again .smh.

Its just that They both worked so hard to protect each other and that was sooo cute to me!! They were like the much needed ride or die for each other and I'm glad that was mutual because I hate when one side of a couple is doing all the work and the other one is just chilling and damsel-ing (this goes for guys and girls in kdramas)

I know some people were like "Cha Eun Gyul is my fave" or. "I only continued to watch cuz of Eun Gyul" or "She should pick Eun Gyul not Tae Joon". But I totally disagreed with all of them.
 I liked Cha Eun Gyul as a friend for Jae Hee so I didn't see any romantic chemistry between them. Like, it just wasn't there. I have to admit, Eun Gyul's crush on Jae Hee kinda creeped me out. (not because of the homosexual factor). Just cuz I was like "You've only known this guy for like 2 weeks and you're already planning your wedding?! Slow down!" but that was the only thing for me. Secondly, we all know Eun Gyul is cute. Thanks for the aegyo but I think he overdid it just a bit. Eun Gyul was like those girls in school that you're good friends with and everyone tells them their soo cute so they always find a way to insert their "cuteness" into everything they do until it becomes annoying.
 Like I said before, I really liked Eun Gyul. Jae Hee wouldn't have survived without him. He certainly deserves gratitude but that doesn't mean she must reciprocate his feelings. I think some people are just meant to be best friends only.

And that picture blogging thing he always did!! Was I the only one that found that a bit... contrived? Like he got punched in the face and he decided to instagram it or whatever website he was on? But okay then. its whatever tho. Stay golden, Cha Eun Gyul.

A lot of people were like "How can they not know Gu Jae Hee is a girl! So stupid." but you have to remember that they live in a society where "flower boys" are normal. like Hello? Kevin from U-kiss!

I rest my case.
Now, time for shout-outs!!
Shout out to Hyun Jae for having a hot face + a hot body

*Don't be afraid to take your clothes off in front of me. please. 

Shout out to Woobie my Boobie for only starring in like 2 episodes but being super flawless the whole time. I'm sorry but I would've picked him in a heartbeat.

*mmmmm... lord knows I would

*Must avoid making inappropriate/semi inappropriate comments
Lastly, shout out to Sulli for being so adorable. Jae Hee was naive and a bit of a bimbo but I still enjoyed her character.

The Princess' Man : Review

"What on earth is affection? I ask the world. And I will answer… That which makes us unhesitatingly grant life and death to each other. That is what affection is". 

Hey Guys!! I wrote this on my phone first so I'll  just list my points
1)  Soo Yang (Se Ryong/main girl's father) is one manipulative ass motherfucker. Like, he knew all the right things to say to get under people's skin/ control their actions

2) I initially liked him because even though he was an evil, disloyal SOB, he was still a good father. I found that kind of interesting

3) One thing I found super refreshing was the fact that although  princess Kyunghye had the "kind" father she wasn't the "kind' one and Se Ryong was the "kind" one but she but she got the evil father. I found this refreshing because usually the good girl/main character usually comes from the family of good and honest people but in Se Ryong's case it was different. Everything wasn't so black and white and I liked that.

4)When I started the drama I expected  princess Kyunghye to be problem and a stone cold bitch. In my mind I  already was  like "okay, she's gonna be super mean to Se Ryong and try to sabotage her relationship with Seung Yoo" but she turned out different. That definitely surprised me.

5) Myeon... Myeon.

I really wanted to strangle Myeon so much!! He's one character I expected to remain good and honest but clearly the writers enjoy blowing my expectations. He was so consumed with jealousy and that whole "filial piety" nonsense. Like, he was on that " if my family becomes evil, so must I" shit. I think in a way he admired Se Ryong because she just gave no fucks and most importantly she didn't feel obligated to follow her dad's evil ways or even turn a blind eye to the stuff he did. She called him out constantly!  She was strong and brave and Myeon was weak sauce and a push over.

6) Now, when it comes to the romance aspect, I think Se Ryong and Seung Yoo had one of the most believable  kdrama relationships ever. Their love was palpable, Their kisses were authentic and their words sounded genuine. It was one of those kdrama relationships that makes you go "ahhh I want a love like this" or "wow, true love really is unbreakable". Corny shit like that.

Yeah... lets just bask in their love for a second..

Miss A "Hush"

Miss A has always been super sexy but I think they definitely took it to another level with their new song "Hush".
When I first heard  the chorus part, I thought the instrumentals were a bit weak but then it builds up and I think that's one of the reasons why I really like the song. I don't think it's my  absolute favorite Miss A song (Bad Girl, Good Girl will always be my fave) But I think I like it more than "I Don't Need A Man".

Now, Back to the sexiness. The way Miss A just oozes sex appeal tho!! They make it look like so easy. Yeah, the dance was pretty risque and out there but I never really go that "okay, that makes me a really uncomfortable, please stop" feeling while I was watching the MV.

I mean DAMN! Teach me your ways Miss A!! I'm a willing student!

Overall I think I like everything about this comeback. The outfits, the MV, the song, the Choreography and those freaking body chains! (from the first picture) Let me have it!